۲ دی ۱۳۸۶

هوا طبق معمول بارونیه، امروز رفتم متروتاون، یک مرکز خرید بزرگه نزدیک داون تاون، تا جایی که چشم کار می کرد بیشترشون چشم تنگ بودن، همه جا شلوغه و همه دنبال خرید کریستمس هستن امشب تنها هستم هم اتاقیم رفته مهمونی، منم نشستم یک فیلم خوب نگاه کردم. سعی کردم از اطلاعاتم بک آپ بگیرم چون باید ویندوزمو که خل شده عوض کنم. راستی شب یلدا هم گذشت، شب یلدا رو بدون انار سپری کردیم، به جاش آب انار خوردیم... خب اینم یک جورشه.

۱۹ آذر ۱۳۸۶

یک چیزی که توی این فصل زمستان توی این شهر بزرگ برام جالب بود صدای قار قار کلاغاشه، توی ونکوور از بس درختان بلند و قدیمی هست که تعجبی نداره این همه کلاغ حضور داشته باشن، بعد از یک باران مداوم هوا اینقده خوبه که جون می ده بری بیرون و راه بری و نفس بکشی، انگاری ریه هام از هوای کثیف و آلوده از کار افتاده است!

۱۱ آذر ۱۳۸۶

یک تازه وارد به یک دنیای جدید... هنوز اول راهم و یک خروار مشکلات پیش رو
راه سخت و دشوار بود... حالا اینجام و همه جا پر برفه... سفید سفید
تنهام و سعی می کنم قوی باشم
توی این دنیای وارونه کی می دونه که چی منتظرشه

۷ بهمن ۱۳۸۳

زمان مثل برق و باد مي آد و مي ره، جوري شده كه اصلاً اون چيزي كه مهم نيست اين وسط، دقيقاً‌ خودتي!!! ديگه حتي كمتر مي رسم توي اينترنت چرخ بزنم، چرا اينجوري شده يا اينكه چرا ما آدما اينطور عجيب و غريب شديم رو نمي دونم.... اما بد دوره اي شده... بد... خيلي بد... جداً آخرشه... گندش بزنن...
نيكي و بدي كه در نهاد بشر است
شادي و غمي كه در قضا و قدر است
با چرخ مكن حواله كاندر ره عقل
چرخ از تو هزار بار بيچاره تر است

۲۸ فروردین ۱۳۸۳

" آن باش
که هستی
و آن شو
که توان بودنت هست."

- رابرت لویی استیونسون

۱۲ فروردین ۱۳۸۳

سال نو شد اما من هنوزم نرسیدم دو خط اینجا چیزی بنویسم. سال گذشته سال زیاد جالبی نبود. آخرشم که دیگه کوران بود از بس که درگیر کارم بودم. اومدم که بگم هستم و امسال رو سعی می کنم بیشتر به این گوشه دنجم سر بزنم. خیلی وقته که دستی به سرو روش نکشیدم. و کلی هم از بقیه دور افتادم. امسال سال میمونه... فکر می کنی قراره چه بلاهایی سرمون بیاد؟؟؟؟؟

۲۹ آذر ۱۳۸۲


"Better be ignorant of a matter than half know it."
- Publilius Syrus

۱۶ آبان ۱۳۸۲

اینم یک جورشه... گاهی وقتا بهتره زیاد جوش ِ دوستا رو نزنی... میگن زیاد که طرفو لوس می کنی دیگه همه چیز براش عادی می شه و بیرنگ ... دارم سعی می کنم ترک عادت کنم و زیاد لی لی به لالاش نزارم....
"در کتاب ظاهر بنگرید؛ ظاهر مردمان چون کلام است و باطن معنی؛ و بدان که مقصود از کلمه معنی است. آدمیان هر یک کتابی اند ناخوانده." - گزیده ای از طومار شیخ شرزین
"چه بگویم درباره ی این دروغ بزرگ که نامش حقیقت است؟ در بازار ارزان می فروشند اگر خریدارید. بدل را به سوگندی نام اصل می دهند، و دروغ را نام راست." - گزیده ای از طومار شیخ شرزین

۷ آبان ۱۳۸۲

کمی خودم و بازم خودم... نیستی که کنارم باشی پس بازم خودمم و خودم.... سعی می کنم با خودم دوست ِ دوست باشم. لااقل خودم به من دروغ نمی گه و رفتارشو تغییر نمی ده و دلمو نمی شکنه.... زنده باد خودم...
خانه بابام و خیال آسوده رو از رهای آبی داشته باشین. یه مشکل همیشگی که معلوم نیست کی فرمول حلش ساخته می شه ....

۲۵ مهر ۱۳۸۲

دارم سعی می کنم یه کمی خودمو عوض کنم... این دنیا به آدمایی که یه کمی احساسات دارن رحم نمی کنه... نه خودش نه آدماش... خب منم زیادی خل بودم و هی چپ و راست بمبارون شدم... اما حالا (هر چند که دیره) تصمیم گرفتم خشن تر باشم. خودمو اذیت نکنم یعنی سعی کنم که کمتر اذیت بشم. به این نتیجه رسیدم توی این دنیا هیچ کسی جز خودم نمی تونه کمکم کنه و حالمو درک کنه... می دونم که هر چه کردم به قول بزرگترا از جیبم رفته اما خب حالا دیگه سعی می کنم اینجوری نشه....

۱۳ مهر ۱۳۸۲

ديشب بارون باحالي اومد و امروز صبح هوا خيلي خيلي لطافت طبعش زياد شده بود. خلاصه يه جورايي آدم دلش مي خواد بره يللي تللي. اما حيف كه بايد بري سركار... اميدوارم اوضاع هر چه زودتر از خال خالي بودن دربياد و من سردماغ بشم و .... بايد يه جورايي اين اهريمن ديونه رو شكستش بدم...

۱۱ مهر ۱۳۸۲

خسته ام.....
و او -آرش- مردی که تا آن سوی گیهان به او لبخند زشت زده بودند، با دل اندوهبار خود میگوید: تیر من تا کجا میتواند برود؟- تیر من تا کجا میتواند برود؟
بعد از یه مدتی دوری دوباره سلام.... راستشو بخواین یه مدتیه بی دل و دماغم. دچار تردید شدم. دارم فکر می کنم توی تصمیمام کجارو اشتباه کردم. شدیداٌ احساس تنهایی و سردرگمی می کنم. اگه حالم بهتر شد برمیگردم.

۱۶ شهریور ۱۳۸۲

۱۴ شهریور ۱۳۸۲

If your birthday is between......

December 23rd~ January 1st = Red
------------------*RED*-------------
You are the cute and lovable type, You are picky but always in love...and likes being loved. Fresh and cheerful, but can be "moody" at times. Capable with people, nice, soft and they can love you for the way you are. Likes people who are easy to talk to and can make you feel comfortable.

January 2nd ~ January 11th = Orange
---------------------*ORANGE*------------
You are responsible for your own actions, and you know how to treat people. You always have goals you look towards, and are competitive. When it comes to friendships, you find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the right friend, you trust them forever.

January 12th ~ January 24th = Yellow
---------------------*YELLOW*-----------------
You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people, and have a strong leadership role in relationships. You make good decisions and make the right choices at the right time. You dream of a romantic relationship.

January 25th ~ February 3rd = Pink
----------------------*PINK*--------------
You are always trying your best in everything, and like to help and care for other people. But you are not easily satisfied. You have negative thoughts, and you look for the sort of romantic love only found in fairytales.

February 4th ~ February 8th = Blue
---------------------*BLUE*--------------
You have low self-esteem and are very picky. You are artistic and like to fall in love, but you let your love pass by, by loving with your mind, not your heart.

February 9th ~ February 18th = Green
----------------------*GREEN*-------------
You get along well with new people. You are not really a shy person, but sometimes you can hurt people's feelings by your words...You like to be loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are single waiting for the right person.

February 19th ~ February 28th = Brown
---------------------*BROWN*-------------
You are active and sportive. It's hard for other people to get close to you, but you fall in love easily. But once you find out you can't get something, you give up and let go easily as well.

February 1st ~ March 10th = Aqua
---------------------*AQUA*-----------
Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You are always lonley, and like travelling. You are truthful, but listen and believe other people too eaily. It's hard to find love for you, and get lost in love easily. Sometimes you also get hurt by love.

March 11th ~ March 20th = Lime
-----------------------*LIME*-------------
You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get jelous easily, and complain over little things. You can't get stuck into one thing,but you have a capable personality for everyone to trust you and like you.

March 21st = Black
--------------------*BLACK*---------------
You are challenging, and have the "guts". But you don't like changes in your life. And once you make a decision, you keep it that way for a long time. Your love life is also challenging, and different.

March 22nd ~ March 31st = Purple
----------------------*PURPLE*------------
You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for people who are trustworthy.

April 1st ~ April 10th = Navy
--------------------*NAVY*----------
You are attractive, and love your life. You have a strong feeling towards everything and are very easily distracted. Once you get angry at someone, its hard for you to forgive them.

April 11th ~ April 20th = Silver
-------------------*SILVER*---------------
You are imaginative and shy, but you like trying new things. You like to challenge yourself. You learn things easily, and like "Hard to get". Your love life is usually hard and confusing.

April 21st ~ April 30th = White
-----------------*WHITE*----------------
You dream and have goals in your life. You get jealous easily and you don't react to things easily. You are different and sometimes thought of highly by others.

May 2st ~ May 14th = Blue
---------------------*BLUE*--------------
You have low self-esteem and are very picky. You are artistic and like to fall in love, but you let your love pass by, by loving with your mind, not your heart.

May 15th ~ May 24th = Gold
----------------------*GOLD*--------------
You know what's right and what's wrong for you. You are cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time.

May 25th ~ June 3rd = Cream
--------------------*CREAM*------------
Competitive and sportive. Don't like losing and always cheerful! You are trustworthy, and very out going. You choose love carefully and don't fall in love easily. But once you find the right one, you don't let go for a long long time.

June 4th ~ June 13th = Grey
---------------------*GREY*---------------
You are attractive, and active. You never hide your feelings and express everything that's inside. But can be selfish at times. You want to be noticed, and don't like to be treated unequally. You can brighten up people's day. You know what to say at the right time, and you have a good sense of humour.

June 14th ~ June 23rd = Maroon
--------------------*MAROON*----------------
You are intellegent, and know what's right. You like to make things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble for not thinking about other people's feelings. But you can be patient when it comes to love... Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.

June 24th = Grey
---------------------*GREY*---------------
You are attractive, and active. You never hide your feelings and express everything that's inside. But can be selfish at times. You want to be noticed, and don't like to be treated unequally. You can brighten up people's day. You know what to say at the right time, and you have a good sense of humour.

June 25th ~ July 4th = Red
------------------*RED*-------------
You are the cute and lovable type, You are picky but always in love...and likes being loved. Fresh and cheerful, but can be "moody" at times. Capable with people, nice, soft and they can love you for the way you are. Likes people who are easy to talk to and can make you feel comfortable.

July 5th ~ July 14th = Orange
---------------------*ORANGE*------------
You are responsible for your own actions, and you know how to treat people. You always have goals you look towards, and are competitive. When it comes to friendships, you find it hard to trust someone, but once you find the right friend, you trust them forever.

July 15th ~ July 25th = Yellow
---------------------*YELLOW*-----------------
You are sweet and innocent. Trusted by many people, and have a strong leadership role in relationships. You make good decisions and make the right choices at the right time. You dream of a romantic relationship.

July 26th ~ August 4th = Pink
----------------------*PINK*--------------
You are always trying your best in everything, and like to help and care for other people. But you are not easily satisfied. You have negative thoughts, and you look for the sort of romantic love only found in fairytales.

August 5th ~ August 13th = Blue
---------------------*BLUE*--------------
You have low self-esteem and are very picky. You are artistic and like to fall in love, but you let your love pass by, by loving with your mind, not your heart.

August 14th ~ August 23rd = Green
----------------------*GREEN*-------------
You get along well with new people. You are not really a shy person, but sometimes you can hurt people's feelings by your words...You like to be loved and noticed by your lover, but mostly you are single waiting for the right person.

August 24th ~ September 2nd = Brown
---------------------*BROWN*-------------
You are active and sportive. It's hard for other people to get close to you, but you fall in love easily. But once you find out you can't get something, you give up and let go easily as well.

September 3rd ~ Septemeber 12th = Aqua
---------------------*AQUA*-----------
Your feelings change suddenly and easily. You are always lonley, and like travelling. You are truthful, but listen and believe other people too eaily. It's hard to find love for you, and get lost in love easily. Sometimes you also get hurt by love.

September 13th ~ September 22nd = Lime
-----------------------*LIME*-------------
You are calm, but easily stressed out. You get jelous easily, and complain over little things. You can't get stuck into one thing,but you have a capable personality for everyone to trust you and like you.

September 23rd = Olive
---------------------*OLIVE*----------------
You are warm and light hearted. You seem to flow well with friends and family. You don't like violence and know what's right. You are kind and cheerful and don't envy other people easily.

September 24th ~October 3rd = Purple
----------------------*PURPLE*------------
You are mysterious, never selfish and get interested in things easily. Your day can be sad or happy depending on your mood. You are popular between friends but you can act stupid at times, and forget things easily. You go for people who are trustworthy.

October 4th ~ October 13th = Navy
--------------------*NAVY*----------
You are attractive, and love your life. You have a strong feeling towards everything and are very easily distracted. Once you get angry at someone, its hard for you to forgive them.

October 14th ~ October 23rd = Silver
-------------------*SILVER*---------------
You are imaginative and shy, but you like trying new things. You like to challenge yourself. You learn things easily, and like "Hard to get". Your love life is usually hard and confusing.

October 24th ~November 11th = White
-----------------*WHITE*----------------
You dream and have goals in your life. You get jealous easily and you don't react to things easily. You are different and sometimes thought of highly by others.

November 12th ~ November 21st = Gold
----------------------*GOLD*--------------
You know what's right and what's wrong for you. You are cheerful and out going. It's hard for you to find the one you want, but once you find the right person, you won't be able to fall in love again for a long time.

November22nd ~ December 1st = Cream
--------------------*CREAM*------------
Competitive and sportive. Don't like losing and always cheerful! You are trustworthy, and very out going. You choose love carefully and don't fall in love easily. But once you find the right one, you don't let go for a long long time.

December 2nd ~ December 11th = Grey
---------------------*GREY*---------------
You are attractive, and active. You never hide your feelings and express everything that's inside. But can be selfish at times. You want to be noticed, and don't like to be treated unequally. You can brighten up people's day. You know what to say at the right time, and you have a good sense of humour.

December 12th~ December 21st = Maroon
--------------------*MAROON*----------------
You are intellegent, and know what's right. You like to make things go your way, which can sometimes cause trouble for not thinking about other people's feelings. But you can be patient when it comes to love... Once you get a hold of the right person, it's hard for you to find a better love.

Decmeber 22nd = Teal
---------------------*TEAL*-------------
You are mostly interested in your looks and have high standards in picking love. You think and make a solution precisely and hardly make stupid mistakes. You like to lead and is easy for you to make new friends.